Monday, 31 March 2008
I could tell stories and sulk on the promises made and tramped on...
But to what purpose?If you do appreciate your true value...some times the end justifies the means...So i will put up and shut up!
(and kick myself every hour for it)
At the end of the day...it is just a play ain't it?
Vou buscar cafes...para subir os andares...
Vou-me odiar por um pouco...mas e' so por um pouco
Saturday, 29 March 2008
Getting home and shower...You put away with all the BS you took all day!
You not only wash your body, you cleanse your soul...this is a rite of passage...you don't like it when you younger but eventually you discover that it brings you serenity...Its almost serendipity!!!
Once you discover it you cant do with out...it is important,mind you!
It is the moment where you throw it all behind and judge it to be a "worth the while" day...And those are such rare moments in life...its liberating...
So go on take a bath or a shower...but think global warming and save water...
(and then the stress comes back)!!!
Olha o banho...
Afoga a porcaria do dia e exulta o tranquilo da alma...
mas pensem no aquecimento global e poupem agua...
(e o stress volta de novo)!!!
You cannot allow immaturity to run riot...there is, i observed, not a believe in plain ingenuity,naiveness...for all people all has a purpose...I do not agree.I do not BELIEVE in quid pro quo at all times.Sometimes our souls speak and rationality plays no weight on it...there should not be malice...
And still they chastise me!
And my fear is that i'll always speak my mind...
Sod it...there is not to much you can do...except put out the fire...and ,really, there is no hose big enough!
Nao consigo calar este fogo que me queima o silencio
Thursday, 27 March 2008
I wake up every morning resolute...
My powerlessness over universal empiricism fades away...
Random or deterministic existence?I was told that quantum theory does NOT represent uncertainty it may indeed hide deterministic facts...
On either case i cant stop but wonder...if this is what I AM did i constructed it myself or rather had no choice?
If the latest...that wouldn't be fair on whom i wedge on...
If i am because i so decide it...well...when did i so chose?
In any case...
I am not Gods gift to women!
So why do i think me so?
And why am i so supported in though?
Tuesday, 25 March 2008
Monday, 24 March 2008
Sunday, 23 March 2008
Saturday, 22 March 2008
Friday, 21 March 2008
I cant stand them...i dunno if its because they cry a lot or what but i kinda suspect that it has to do with parents imposing them on us...it can also be because i am a bit jealous of not having none yet, although,mind you, i am absolutely not ready for any...the thing is that i am an unimposing person and really dislike the fact that i go to the supermarket and they are being pushed on their buggies and crying and the space that them buggies take is frustrating...i mean...you cant move on the supermarket because the stupid car is blocking your way,their occupiers at 180 decibels,you try to walk up the street and you got go to the road because they're blocking the pedestrian walk, they scream and vomit in public transportation and the parents think its ok because everybody loves their cutie pie...they're all over the place and again parents think they are entitled to impose they offspring on us because everybody has or will have one...so what?What if i am infertile??What if i don't wanna have them?
Yeah...i suspect that with all this rant i realize one thing...its not babies that i dislike...its their parents...
I mean...Who could not LOVE THIS PERFECT TREASURE???
I don't like parents...at least whilst i'm on this side!!!
Thursday, 20 March 2008
Tuesday, 18 March 2008
Monday, 17 March 2008
Two days off...just got home, got my bath,got my shot and TWO days off...maybe i'll go to the zoo, to the park, to the movies, to the Tate, to Camden,to anywhere even Paris...it is just 2 hours by train...i'll nip there for lunch and be back home for dinner...then again...i might just sleep for two days...i dunno...
Its all roses...now, if i could only get the girl(but she's so far away).
Sunday, 16 March 2008
They come on all shapes and sizes...
But throw me innocence and joy and tell me that this is not a day to celebrate humanity...They fond the girl Shannon...it dampen my eyes...and you start the morning on a train like this...Oh men...i love westbound piccadily line (sometimes)!
Most of all...you GOT TO LOVE THE INNOCENCE AND FASHION CONSCIENCE OF JAPANESE PEOPLE
Fazes melhor Fatima Lopes?
Saturday, 15 March 2008
Friday, 14 March 2008
OK...so it was £50000 for a brazilian rock...
And you know what?People sit on it...
And it is a different kind of pebble...
But it is gorgeous...and when you walking into a somber place you might as well have something that distracts you...i, for once, think is great
Now,if i could only have Banksy coming over to my flat...
Palerma...calhaus ha muitos,palerma!
Thursday, 13 March 2008
I am tired of supporting a party, that for a peoples party indoctrinates a policy of protecting minorities without realizing that that protection makes them all too vulnerable.
Being a big brother state leaves no margin of error to no one...it has to be as perceived by some disconnected people.I am not saying that it hasn't do a lot...but much more has to be done and this party stagnates on his own 10 years of "glory".By all means,protect the little man (Tory just would do and them days are counted) but by doing so do not harm the ones that do want to be productive...Do i ask a lot?did i?Former drug addict and alchoolic and still always a working member of society...I did rebelled against the "man".My fights were with everyone and i was a sophist of sorts...Still, not just my upbringing but also my inner values gave me the sense of justice in this world...Its my habit (was) i should be able to afford it...i will not sponge off of anybody...
I believe a person is a person regardless of gender, religion and sexual orientation...so do not ask for more than you are willing to give.I haven't...people disliked me,distrusted me but i always gave 100% on everything...not because of them...because i was proud enought to believe that one day this world will be for all...and not just for a few rich ones...or some poor sob that things his is the worst existence in the world...because his black, because hes gay, because shes a woman...Lord have mercy on the poor, black ugly lesbian...
Let me try the Lib.Dem.
Otherwise i'll just pack up and look for another farsical country
Tuesday, 11 March 2008
Dazzle me, trick me, take my rings but leave just enough to restore my faith in the miracle of being...
Podes ficar com a casa, com o carro, com as joias...mas nao fiques com a alegria de viver
Monday, 10 March 2008
I was told that i rant about all and nothing over here...that mine was a difficult english to read and even understand!I guess...i dunno!To me it makes perfect sense...that was the purpose of doing this blog...write my experiences and what i tough about them, how did they made me feel!True that i might chose some words that not all people would commonly use but i find it absolutely boring to be using the same word on a sentence (synonymous...!!!).
Fact is that this is as i firstly describe it , a place where i can write whatever the hell i want...i am not writing a piece of journalistic interest...My hope is that i can have sharing experiences with people, that when they read this they can say:2 i can relate to that...let me share my stuff with this guy"!
Still...well one can only hope...till then i'll keep on writing and you keep on criticizing...eventually join in.AND IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND IT...
Sunday, 9 March 2008
In incandescent sight,you procure understanding of existence.The essence of life eludes you constantly and still you seek...You guard your knowledge fearsomely and you question every aspect of what is put onto your way.You live with the residence of God in you and you feel empty by the lack of emphatic souls...you know they re out there but most cant grasp the concept of eternity...they don't even know whether they coming or going...still the light shines and blinds you and you know you have got to compromise in order to break solitude.It ain't nice anymore...
Sometimes you do have to compromise.
Tou a pensar em arrancar a 125 azul!
OU SERA MELHOR NAO O FAZER?E entrar em compromisso?
Saturday, 8 March 2008
I would like to know why is it that if you are of a different race, gender or personal choice of the majority you immediately find yourself with an handicap and thus a victim of society?Whats more , why is it that that majority ends up believing such bull?I mean...i had this person that pointed out the fact that she was(is) a woman and as such she should be treated differently...and they believe so...i had this one that decided that i am homophobic and even another that told me that i was surely a racist because i was demanding to much of him...Now...you might think that a person with such an aggressive nature as mine and a perfectionist at what ever i do (if at least to hide my physical faults) is probably all of the above, but i would beg to differ...what i am is a person that believes in equal opportunities and believe that there should be nothing that prevents people celebrating that equality...undoubtedly "liberte,equalite et fraternite".
I cant stand those people that demand equality and then demand to be treated differently because theyres is not the conventional way...
There should not be a place for self-discrimination these days...and the more fools we are to allow that to happen.
Enforce diversity and force equality!Dont expect political correctness
Querem igualdade?Exigam-na e enforcem-na
Friday, 7 March 2008
Shall we dance then princess?
Shall we make do with the distance that pushes us apart and someday in a near future go and say:"it has only made us stronger!"?
Shall we forget that the night is upon us and indeed the light will guides us to a better place?
Or shall we just pretend that really...nothing ever happened, and dream a long sleep again?
I wouldn't like that, would you?
Afinal, que Senso faz a vida sem A ter?
Thursday, 6 March 2008
Procuring perfection on ones own attitude towards life is hard enough.
Where do you go when you try to instill mannerism onto people?
I saw this piece on the newspaper today...This lady was tanking this other person on the whatever bus number in our capital, for not telling, on the phone, what had happen to his finger that was grossly mutilated;and then you wonder...there are still other people like that out there...
I can we not be more?It ethics, mannerism,its life with society...its not blending in...i standing proud to be different...different on your core values...it is not being continental, ethnic ,gay...is about the way you live your life and let others live...
But there is always a rotten apple...
Nows a days, you wonder were the good apple is on this basket full of worms???
Lets just wait for another 7 days...it does say so on the label
E comer o pao que o diabo amanc,ou
Tuesday, 4 March 2008
Monday, 3 March 2008
Its late night, you close your eyes and wish about dreaming...the weight of your eyes becomes unbearable and the flash on your brain makes you know that you are about to enter another dimension...you can only wish the rest...and still the same dreams,granted, with nuances but still the same dream...It has been 9 years and still that dream persists!There is no changing whats connected!
You get stressed,you are worried and on those nights the recurrence of thoughts is all but the same;and then you are taken to this exhilarating time of your life but also a hurt full one;it is because the dreams and the actual reality inter twain...for it is all connected and you again feel scared,worried and have no idea how to play the politics of life...talk about weaving tangled webs
Sem pendura,que a vida ja me foi dura para insistir na companhia
Saturday, 1 March 2008
People are funny...
For some reason they always seem to think that they're the holders of truth (yours truly inclusive)...there are no shades of truth but there are always 3 versions of it...mine,his/hers and the absolute one.
Still, sometimes, that truth has to take sides.It is not en ought that truth is disambiguation itself.It,sometimes, has to be assertive towards a comum goal...that's when it gets, not bent nor distorted but in accordance to a greater good...that's when you lose, i guess, your innocence and comply with the "man"...
That is when you see that although you are cruising trough this existence you have to comply to a lot of its bullshit so to be part of it...I've seen the other way
E para que continuar na rebeliao quando ela deixa de fazer sentido?Nao e logico fazer-se parte da equacao para poder resolve-la?
O tempo da garganta ja se foi