Thursday, 28 October 2010

Dante Alighieri

In that part of the book of my memory,before the which is little that can be read,there is a rubric, saying "here beginneth the New Life".Under such rubric I find written many things;and among them the words which I purpose to copy into this little book;if not all of them,at the least their substance.
Chapter one:

I love you Paula

Friday, 27 August 2010

Sunday, 29 November 2009


Don't seem to be able to disperse this sense of "lacking".
Don't even know what I'm missing but these haven't been joyful days lately.
And i am ready to burst out.

Monday, 19 October 2009


Os autocarros em Londres, esperam-se-os e veem 4 de uma vez.
Acender cigarros, queimar a prata o aqucer a colher...
Bem nunca se os tem.Mas quando veem os isqueiros sao aos multiplos.

Friday, 2 October 2009

Rape of the pianist...

I have nothing to add. Absolutely right.

Tuesday, 22 September 2009

dick,cock,major tom...

Well, here's another nice mess you've gotten me into...

Tuesday, 8 September 2009


Harsh reality that of losing loved ones. I feel as they move on to a much more enlightened substance but the pain makes you wonder of all the things you have not.
Not sorry how life is turning out but voided of companionship it doesn't get to pleasant.
Still, time is on my side.
And the quest persists.

Sunday, 30 August 2009

Still abstaining

Still abstaining
Life has these screwed up situations, doesn't it? I now i worry.
I've always loved the romantics, the quest for the girl, the chivalry code, the game...
It has been my constant downfall where relationships are concerned. I don't like them easy, they bore me. So i live constantly in love.
These last 3 years though have been complicated.
I have stepped back and decided that women were generally my problem and that i was never in a healthy situation, back this last one takes the load.
The worst thing is that i am absolutely in love with this girl.But couldn't really change much.So..she's 7 months pregnant and dated a big friend of mine.
Well, on and off, anyways.We went out and things happened.I thought time would mend this, but it turns out it made it worst.I can't forget her feet, her nose her smile.Then i've spoken to him today and he knows it now.I felt so sorry for him and felt so devasted by what he said that i did the only thing that i could do if i was anybody else.I wrote her a text saying that i could no longer see her or speak to her.
I am dead inside.It hurts so much, but i know it's the only thing to do.How fair is life?
Fuck this crap.
So i'll endure celibacy for a while longer and learn from this.
My blog is my memory.And my sentence.
I hate not being able to be with her.Fuck the rules.
And still i'm chained to them.

Saturday, 29 August 2009


It's official...
I no longer have Hepatitis and big brother is finally over for good.

Saturday, 22 August 2009

Saturday, 15 August 2009




Saturday, 8 August 2009

I am all squeezed out.
Can't stand to work anymore.
Bummer.Damn all for stealing my thunder.

Thursday, 6 August 2009


It has gone 11 years now.
And today i was finally declared free of it.
Won't be seeing these pictures soon and still on track for 103 years old.

Sunday, 2 August 2009


Phew...a week sick but no weird flues.
me thinks...
Now the next results are due this week. Will i sign up with Aviva for a pension scheme???

Thursday, 30 July 2009


I am going insane with nothingness...
Holidays are coming.
Boy do i need them

Saturday, 25 July 2009


I swear...

Friday, 24 July 2009


My percepction of reallity is not good anymore.
I am tired and confused and i dunno where i'm going.
I need holidays and i've started smoking again.
I can't write but still i am content.
How frustrating is this?!

Wednesday, 22 July 2009

Sunday, 19 July 2009

Not fair

There is no symmetry in the universe.
It is one of the most wishful thinking theories of the religious themes that run the world.
I say this not with hurt but with the certainty of facts, as the simple idea of such would destroy the very concept of a forgivable God.
And God not only doesn't play dice with the universe, He also cares for knowing all that is known and unknown as it completes Him as the omnipotent all.
So on the question of fairness, the concept is entirely human and it's practice is society driven.
And everyone breaks the rules.

Friday, 17 July 2009


It's longer do we care, in London, if someone enters the train looking suspicious and caring a rucksack. They can even be wearing a winter coat in summertime for all we care.This city has it's characters and boy, does nothing amaze us any more...
Still, a simple sneeze, even though is hay-fever season, and you are short of crucified.
I know, i would be one nailing the nails.

Thursday, 16 July 2009

Tell me why...i don't like Mondays

a couple of weird things happened this week but nothing more so than champagne cocktails on Monday and testicular pain that i thought was all but over with age.Nice.
I keep on moaning about it and how i don't like it, so you would be forgiven to think that i am thrilled.Still, i would like to not have an "got your earings" argument to forcibly pick up the cell.
It damn if i will, damn if i wont.

Friday, 10 July 2009

birds and bees

oh...what i wouldn't give to be in love...

Thursday, 9 July 2009


I have to tell you that i can't understand this...
Why do people with bad breath always talk directly to your face?
Why do the trains of London smell so much when the night comes?
Why do i look for complicated relantionships?
And why the hell did anyone think this was a good ad?

Sunday, 5 July 2009

National Friends

I have a friend that i've always liked. He's opinionated and strong headed.It is sometimes easy to dismiss him but he has a very intense personality, always mesmerizing. He can make people converge into his ideas.
And now he is a candidate for a right wing party.
I would dismiss anyother person, but i really like this guy so i guess that i'll have to put up and shut up.
It will, though, be difficult for me not to express an opinion but i hope i won't do it because i don't want to lose him as a friend.All and all i alienate people so much that the phew that i allow in, i MUST keep.

Friday, 3 July 2009


I just heard on the news (BBC) that there are reports that children are being sold for adoption to pay for the fines handed to parents who break the strict "1 couple, 1 child" policy.
I so wish it is unfounded.

Thursday, 2 July 2009


So i'm coming home on the tube and this guy is on the same carriage i board. He ate a MacDonalds and was leaving the crumpled bag and napkin on the seat were i headed to. So i grab it and was going to throw it out before the train left the platform to which he started saying that it was in fact his and that he was going to throw it out himself but never onto the platform and that he (irony on his voice) would never do that...
We could be here as i was on the train, discussing the right and wrongs of the situation but let me just ask you...WHAT OR RATHER, WHEN IS GARBAGE GARBAGE?
The fact is that by leaving it on the seat he was in fact stating that that crumpled bag was garbage, so if was either here or there it was still garbage, right? What does it matter the geography of garbage? It is still polluting if it is not inside a proper container.
That is why i take my garbage home.

Tuesday, 30 June 2009


Why would black girls think they don't have to shave their legs?

Monday, 29 June 2009

FAN #1

The music of this woman...

Saturday, 27 June 2009


I will love to one day play this song and really mean it.
But when i think about it...i get homesick.
Now...what good is that then?

Friday, 26 June 2009

Thursday, 25 June 2009

Freedom of Speech???????????????


When i leave this place, I'll erase all the contacts i have but three.
How uncool is that?

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

The time doctor

Sympathy for the devil

Cant help but admire the brilliancy of the statement that, purposefully or not, Josephine Lyons makes when she conjures up this master piece of corporation demise. The post-apocalyptic life of credit crunch means that there is hope again for the flourishing of innovative ideas that bring people down to earth in contact with reality and more in touch with their pockets.
Still ... can't help but miss the place where i bought my niece's fantasy customs.


Northern Ireland, Belfast.
100 Romanians leave Northern Ireland because of racist attacks.Even the church that was giving them shelter was attacked.
Sick disgracefull bastards.

Friday, 19 June 2009


Sitting down on the only place were contemplation is permitted.
...and i came to the conclusion that all can be summoned into the need that i have to save everybody even if that means i have to drown.
Epiphanies at the john...

Thursday, 18 June 2009


Words blacked out by dark ink.
Jury's disassembled as security is no longer reliable nor is their impartiality.
1 dead every two days cycling the capital.
Hay fever in almost a third of it's population.
Wimbledon coming.
Strike on the tube stops the whole capital

i am sick of doing nothing.
Time seems to have stoped

Monday, 15 June 2009

The big C

Men are more likely to die of cancer than women. But there is no underline biological reason for that. That is the result of a compreehnsive study in GB. Men are 16% more likely to get the disease.
I can tell you why ,really. Men just wont go to the doctor. When a flu hit us we moan and groan like there's no tomorrow.We are flimsy about these things.Me? not so much...if i could i would set up tent in front of my doctors surgery.
The point is that men are always to embaraced to talk about ilnesses and so they suffer.
16% more...damn...
Lets hope that president Mahmoud Ahmadinejad is one of them.
I don't dispute their results but i really don't like seeing this guy there.

Sunday, 14 June 2009

Life of me

1 day away from a chapter closure.
Life in Britain...will it continue for much longer?
Clock is ticking and i know i am not the messiah.

Saturday, 13 June 2009


this is the people that make my world in London...


The thing about comfort zones is that they don't relinquish the power they have over us.Is almost hypnotic.And you want move on but you just don't seen able to do so.Even when you pushed into it.
Is it a flaw in character?
Or is everyone else like that?
I mean, i am a champion in leaving lost causes behind so why do i keep on holding on to the one that has constantly undermined everything i believe in?

Thursday, 11 June 2009


Alive...but broken
Still, managed to have a laught...

Transport for London....NOT!!!

gonna brave the strike today on the tube and gonna go to work.
If i make it alive , i''l inform you later.
Wish me luck...

Monday, 8 June 2009


total cost of the work..................4.042,95 euros
E.C. participation.......................5.532.21 euros

Once in a while you forget about things.
The longer you think about it the harder it is to remember.Then suddenly it comes to you.
By then EVERYONE knows.

Stand by...

Right, right, right.
How do we move from this crappy European results?
Germany, Italy, Britain, Portugal, Hungary, Spain.
This is not a catastrophe but is not that far.
Apathy or discontentment non-vote?

Sunday, 7 June 2009

Some study has just shown that girls are outperforming boys.
All over the world...



Friday, 5 June 2009

Black and white

I am sure that a woman must feel the entering of a cock.I am also sure she sometimes feels like it entering on her even if no one is present, as much as we men, once in a while feel a phantom pussy in ourselves.
Rambling about what?
Feel.Or imagine there is.
But just because we imagine it does not make it so.
So a complex of persecution just because you differ in your colour, sexual preference, religion or whatever, isn't at all justified.

Thursday, 4 June 2009

not bad for a dawn

new job...check

Wednesday, 3 June 2009


Don't forget to vote tomorrow!!!

Tuesday, 2 June 2009

Following an experience on twitter with interested curiosity.
There is this professor called Richard Wiseman and he's doing an experiment on remote viewing.At 3 o'clock everyday of this week he will be asking people to concentrate an d imagine he is and the post it. Honest to God. Monday i've got it right.Tuesday completly wrong.
But the funny thing is where the first result took me. Looking for this and that, every other step i took would lead me to a link for the string Theory.And even when i walked out of home, weird stuff kept on happening.
I love it to bits...
Will keep you posted.

Monday, 1 June 2009

Saturday, 30 May 2009

It sucks to be you...

The Karma of Signs

Is there any chance of women not putting such capital importance in zodiac signs?
Stupid Zoroaster.I mean, what the hell is the point of people devoting such attention to it and even effectually getting influenced by it. I'll end up alone if this continues.
Nobody wants a sign like mine.

Friday, 29 May 2009

Anda-le toro!!!

I have no sympathy for this man!!!

Thursday, 28 May 2009

Vidal Sassoon

It's incredible.
I don't owe beauty anything and can't really count on impact visualization other than offend (well, i am really not that ugly!!!) but i try to groom myself to, at least, look presentable. Sure they say i have charm and charisma but i haven't seen any of it laying around.I don't scare people but let's just say i don't get second looks on the subway.Mine is a different approach as it were because i have to take my time to weave my web.
But at least give me something Lord.
Why would my hair only look good when i am home alone?
Freaking hell.It's like it has a mind of its own and decides to undermine ANY possibility of me catching a woman's second look.
To whom can i complain?

Wednesday, 27 May 2009

Uncle Sam needs me

Got a super meeting tomorrow.
Make or break, you could say.
Now, i don't do politics and my diplomacy skills stink but tomorrow i have got to be on the top of my game. It is, very likely, a beginning of some sort. Either of a new life or the beginning of the end.
Whatever it's result be it must BE.
Again i cannot leave it to the side.So i'm rallying up the troops and get on with it.

Sunday, 24 May 2009

The power of the lord compels you...

I was ,and am, always a firm believer of a laic state. The separation of state/religion is and must always be such as the interference will become inevitable.
But this morning, woke up to two Archbishops urging people to fight the temptation of voting for "smaller parties" in the upcoming elections, just because of all that is happening.
BRITISH NATIONAL PARTY the power of lord compels you.... have got to wonder.Is it right for them to do so?
I read on a prestigious financial on-line site that the Portuguese government had ask for financial help from the church.Lately, the church seems to be all over the place.Even the Pope speaks about two different states in the middle east.

Saturday, 23 May 2009

Land of down under...

In this moment in time, that everyone hates bankers, it was quite refreshing to hear,this morning, about that couple in New Zealand that was going through financial problems and woke up to find that a bank had credited to their account several million dollars.They didn't thought twice and transfered 3million US$ to an offshore account and vanished...
Would you do the same?

And here's another snipet from New Zealand...

Friday, 22 May 2009

Rules of engagement...

Coming home and the slightest of whispers drops into my ears.In a discussion on the subway one defends the idea of what is the ultimate goal of Mankind, but it itself is not voided of psychological and cultural barriers that are imposed into it as a society.It is quite extraordinary that the pursuit of happiness is bonded by belief in imposed laws.


Thursday, 21 May 2009


£600 for a duck's island.This is what my taxes paid for.
Nice.At least in Portugal it would pay for a barbecue for the ducks.
Damn politicians.

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

Free Will(y)

Again i read about a present and a past being molded by the future.
Intrinsic finality...
And what can we make of it.It's terrifying and wondrous.And the more you think the harder it is as it is anti-intuitive.But closely follows destiny and all comes crumbling down.
Determinism again.


There is a vacuum in where there use to be joy for work.
Work brought me a distraction of what would otherwise be a very painful recovery.
They say your kind is the worst but i don't agree with that.I see this not as a nationality issue but one of human nature.
And so they suck the joy out of it.Anything really.
And i am tired.


Well anxious, i am.
Will i stay, will i go?
I want to go but leaving means saying goodbye to all it has been for the last 6 years. I know i shouldn't care and i don't really but still something holds me back.
Anxious i tell you!!

Monday, 18 May 2009

writing for the heck of it

Friday, 15 May 2009

down the PIPEX

Just got home to see that the new contract that i redid with my phone company in order to save some £££ cost me an 800% increase on my bill.
Whatever you do people NEVER subscrive with PIPEX.
They are the tomb raiders of the 21th century


Thursday, 14 May 2009

Infamy, Infamy, they've all got it in for me!!!

Hate to wallow in self pity, mostly because i don't do self-pity, but i need to vent out.I just don't understand how relationships work.I have no interpersonal-skills, i guess.The fact is that everybody seems to want a piece of me.Mind you,i have no quarrels in helping people.But they seem to hold a grudge on that.This is not conspiracy theory. It's just the way i see things. Obviously, others will see it differently and i seem to lose myself philosophying about all but diplomacy.
I need change from the environment that i have set myself on. Minnows, the lot of them.And so i sell myself short.Challenges is what i need, not daggers.
Like Abraham Lincoln once said :
"If i was double-faced would i be using this one???"

Wednesday, 13 May 2009

The Parliament,TFL,TRG,tutti-frutti...

day light robbers....
wherever i go!!!

What do i do with it, then??

Tuesday, 12 May 2009

Got to get away from there

The city...
And me away from the chaos.
Excellent day off

Sunday, 10 May 2009

Eco over Voice

Consider this, if you will.
What if all we discover presently has been discovered already in the future...
Einstein's trains weren't true just when he discovered it, right?
So it has always been.If so then the past is all that the future has been.
Who says time is linear then?

Saturday, 9 May 2009


I wont play it because i don't want it!!!

Friday, 8 May 2009

quixotic quest

Thought experiment...
Have you ever tried it?
Say that, for instance, ours is a bubble universe that by expanding meet another part of a must vaster one.
Where does God fit on this?
Break it down, because there is one thing that is certain...