cynicism

Words blacked out by dark ink.

Jury's disassembled as security is no longer reliable nor is their impartiality.

1 dead every two days cycling the capital.

Hay fever in almost a third of it's population.

Wimbledon coming.

Strike on the tube stops the whole capital

WELCOME TO ENGLAND?

i am sick of doing nothing.

Time seems to have stoped

The big C

Men are more likely to die of cancer than women. But there is no underline biological reason for that. That is the result of a compreehnsive study in GB. Men are 16% more likely to get the disease.

I can tell you why ,really. Men just wont go to the doctor. When a flu hit us we moan and groan like there's no tomorrow.We are flimsy about these things.Me? not so much...if i could i would set up tent in front of my doctors surgery.

The point is that men are always to embaraced to talk about ilnesses and so they suffer.

16% more...damn...

Lets hope that president Mahmoud Ahmadinejad is one of them.

I don't dispute their results but i really don't like seeing this guy there.

Life of me

1 day away from a chapter closure.

Life in Britain...will it continue for much longer?

Clock is ticking and i know i am not the messiah.

bonkers

this is the people that make my world in London...

OFF ME HEAD...

The thing about comfort zones is that they don't relinquish the power they have over us.Is almost hypnotic.And you want move on but you just don't seen able to do so.Even when you pushed into it.

Is it a flaw in character?

Or is everyone else like that?

I mean, i am a champion in leaving lost causes behind so why do i keep on holding on to the one that has constantly undermined everything i believe in?

DAMN THESE COMFORT ZONES...

Gorgeous

Alive...but broken

Ufffff...

Still, managed to have a laught...

Transport for London....NOT!!!

gonna brave the strike today on the tube and gonna go to work.

If i make it alive , i''l inform you later.

Wish me luck...

Forgetting

total cost of the work..................4.042,95 euros

E.C. participation.......................5.532.21 euros

Once in a while you forget about things.

The longer you think about it the harder it is to remember.Then suddenly it comes to you.

By then EVERYONE knows.

Stand by...

Right, right, right.

How do we move from this crappy European results?

Germany, Italy, Britain, Portugal, Hungary, Spain.

This is not a catastrophe but is not that far.

Apathy or discontentment non-vote?

Some study has just shown that girls are outperforming boys.

All over the world...

hummmmmmm

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Black and white

I am sure that a woman must feel the entering of a cock.I am also sure she sometimes feels like it entering on her even if no one is present, as much as we men, once in a while feel a phantom pussy in ourselves.

Rambling about what?

Feel.Or imagine there is.

But just because we imagine it does not make it so.

So a complex of persecution just because you differ in your colour, sexual preference, religion or whatever, isn't at all justified.

So...

FUCK YOU FOR PUTTING ME ON THE SPOT!

not bad for a dawn

tired...check

vote...check

new job...check

Running

Don't forget to vote tomorrow!!!

http://richardwiseman.wordpress.com/

Following an experience on twitter with interested curiosity.
There is this professor called Richard Wiseman and he's doing an experiment on remote viewing.At 3 o'clock everyday of this week he will be asking people to concentrate an d imagine he is and the post it. Honest to God. Monday i've got it right.Tuesday completly wrong.
But the funny thing is where the first result took me. Looking for this and that, every other step i took would lead me to a link for the string Theory.And even when i walked out of home, weird stuff kept on happening.
I love it to bits...
Will keep you posted.

Freedom of speech...

YOU HAVE GOT TO LOVE IT

It sucks to be you...

The Karma of Signs

Is there any chance of women not putting such capital importance in zodiac signs?
Stupid Zoroaster.I mean, what the hell is the point of people devoting such attention to it and even effectually getting influenced by it. I'll end up alone if this continues.
Nobody wants a sign like mine.

Anda-le toro!!!

I have no sympathy for this man!!!

Vidal Sassoon

It's incredible.
I don't owe beauty anything and can't really count on impact visualization other than offend (well, i am really not that ugly!!!) but i try to groom myself to, at least, look presentable. Sure they say i have charm and charisma but i haven't seen any of it laying around.I don't scare people but let's just say i don't get second looks on the subway.Mine is a different approach as it were because i have to take my time to weave my web.
But at least give me something Lord.
Why would my hair only look good when i am home alone?
Freaking hell.It's like it has a mind of its own and decides to undermine ANY possibility of me catching a woman's second look.
CRAP.
To whom can i complain?

Uncle Sam needs me

Got a super meeting tomorrow.
Make or break, you could say.
Now, i don't do politics and my diplomacy skills stink but tomorrow i have got to be on the top of my game. It is, very likely, a beginning of some sort. Either of a new life or the beginning of the end.
Whatever it's result be it must BE.
Again i cannot leave it to the side.So i'm rallying up the troops and get on with it.

The power of the lord compels you...

I was ,and am, always a firm believer of a laic state. The separation of state/religion is and must always be such as the interference will become inevitable.
But this morning, woke up to two Archbishops urging people to fight the temptation of voting for "smaller parties" in the upcoming elections, just because of all that is happening.
BRITISH NATIONAL PARTY the power of lord compels you....
Still...you have got to wonder.Is it right for them to do so?
I read on a prestigious financial on-line site that the Portuguese government had ask for financial help from the church.Lately, the church seems to be all over the place.Even the Pope speaks about two different states in the middle east.
Hummm...

Land of down under...

In this moment in time, that everyone hates bankers, it was quite refreshing to hear,this morning, about that couple in New Zealand that was going through financial problems and woke up to find that a bank had credited to their account several million dollars.They didn't thought twice and transfered 3million US$ to an offshore account and vanished...

Would you do the same?

And here's another snipet from New Zealand...

Rules of engagement...

Coming home and the slightest of whispers drops into my ears.In a discussion on the subway one defends the idea of what is the ultimate goal of Mankind, but it itself is not voided of psychological and cultural barriers that are imposed into it as a society.It is quite extraordinary that the pursuit of happiness is bonded by belief in imposed laws.

AND THE POINT IS..???

Suckers...

£600 for a duck's island.This is what my taxes paid for.
Nice.At least in Portugal it would pay for a barbecue for the ducks.
Damn politicians.

Free Will(y)

Again i read about a present and a past being molded by the future.
Intrinsic finality...
And what can we make of it.It's terrifying and wondrous.And the more you think the harder it is as it is anti-intuitive.But closely follows destiny and all comes crumbling down.
Determinism again.

Dyson

There is a vacuum in where there use to be joy for work.
Work brought me a distraction of what would otherwise be a very painful recovery.
They say your kind is the worst but i don't agree with that.I see this not as a nationality issue but one of human nature.
And so they suck the joy out of it.Anything really.
And i am tired.

ansiedade

Well anxious, i am.
Will i stay, will i go?
I want to go but leaving means saying goodbye to all it has been for the last 6 years. I know i shouldn't care and i don't really but still something holds me back.
Anxious i tell you!!

writing for the heck of it

fear

Bush's army

down the PIPEX

arghhhh...
Just got home to see that the new contract that i redid with my phone company in order to save some £££ cost me an 800% increase on my bill.
Whatever you do people NEVER subscrive with PIPEX.
They are the tomb raiders of the 21th century

FUCKERS

Infamy, Infamy, they've all got it in for me!!!

Hate to wallow in self pity, mostly because i don't do self-pity, but i need to vent out.I just don't understand how relationships work.I have no interpersonal-skills, i guess.The fact is that everybody seems to want a piece of me.Mind you,i have no quarrels in helping people.But they seem to hold a grudge on that.This is not conspiracy theory. It's just the way i see things. Obviously, others will see it differently and i seem to lose myself philosophying about all but diplomacy.
I need change from the environment that i have set myself on. Minnows, the lot of them.And so i sell myself short.Challenges is what i need, not daggers.
Like Abraham Lincoln once said :
"If i was double-faced would i be using this one???"

The Parliament,TFL,TRG,tutti-frutti...

day light robbers....

wherever i go!!!

What do i do with it, then??

Got to get away from there

The city...

And me away from the chaos.

Excellent day off

Eco over Voice

Consider this, if you will.

What if all we discover presently has been discovered already in the future...

Einstein's trains weren't true just when he discovered it, right?

So it has always been.If so then the past is all that the future has been.

Who says time is linear then?

Euromillions

I wont play it because i don't want it!!!

quixotic quest

Thought experiment...
Have you ever tried it?
Say that, for instance, ours is a bubble universe that by expanding meet another part of a must vaster one.
Where does God fit on this?
Break it down, because there is one thing that is certain...
THERE IS A GOD!!!

futurism

The placebo effect

Don't try this at home. Several times a day, for several days, you induce pain in someone. You control the pain with morphine until the final day of the experiment, when you replace the morphine with saline solution. Guess what? The saline takes the pain away.

This is the placebo effect: somehow, sometimes, a whole lot of nothing can be very powerful. Except it's not quite nothing. When Fabrizio Benedetti of the University of Turin in Italy carried out the above experiment, he added a final twist by adding naloxone, a drug that blocks the effects of morphine, to the saline. The shocking result? The pain-relieving power of saline solution disappeared.

So what is going on? Doctors have known about the placebo effect for decades, and the naloxone result seems to show that the placebo effect is somehow biochemical. But apart from that, we simply don't know!!!

Childish...i know...

Dude....Where's my bike???

Multi but not Parallel...

Until any setback the smart money will remain with the multiverse and string theory. "It has the best chance of anything we know to be right," Weinberg says of string theory. "There's an old joke about a gambler playing a game of poker," he adds. "His friend says, 'Don't you know this game is crooked, and you are bound to lose?' The gambler says, 'Yes, but what can I do, it's the only game in town.' We don't know if we are bound to lose, but even if we suspect we may, it is the only game in town."

Have no doubts...

Congratulations doctor!!!

I shall reserve this space for my sister's graduation ceremony!!!

Manual de como ser estupido...

Esquema bem montado

1 Logo a começar o dia e até ao final da noite, quem vive agarrado à heroína circula no largo da Plameira de Baixo, junto ao 'Bar Fonte da Palmeira'.

2 Ocupam o tempo nas conversas uns com os outros, fumando, tomando o café ou a cerveja, até que chegue a 'mercadoria'.

3 Os carros - das mais variadas marcas, cores e condutores - estacionam perto do Bar. Os condutores trocam breves palavras com o 'chefe'/traficante, recebem o dinheiro vivo, em notas, e arrancam como se nada tivesse acontecido.

4 O traficante, também consumidor, convoca normalmente dois ou três rapazes e acompanha-os ao bêco, lado esquerdo do Bar. É aí que consomem a heroína, num espaço de dez a quinze minutos. E voltam ao largo ou ao Bar, já saciados.

5 Por vezes, consomem a droga na casa desabitada de um emigrante em França. Saltam a varanda, várias vezes ao dia, e alimentam ali o vício como se da sua casa se tratasse.

6 Estão atentos à 'bófia', embora saibam lidar muito bem com as polícias.

7 O movimento de carros que traz a mercadoria é contínuo ao longo do dia. Até cerca das 21h30, o DIÁRIO registou seis viaturas diferentesa efectuar a entrega do tão cobiçado produto. Matrículas à vista de todos.

8 Chegada a noite, e alucinados pela droga, é a vez de desfrutarem do karaoke e da bebida do Bar. A música alta, indiferente ao impacto na vizinhança, mostra a festa que provoca a droga.

9 Alguns regressam a casa, atordoados e saciados. Outros fazem a maratona até a madrugada porque o negócio é rentável.

10 Os nome dos cabecilhas desta rede são falados, mas continuam a lucrar em liberdade, com o argumento judicial da falta de provas materiais. 11 A população, atónita e atada, vê a geração de jovens do Caniçal, até educada na catequese católica, a perder-se no vício sem ter consciência de que é uma caminhada para o abismo sem retorno.

12 Face à impunidade e à indiferença geral, o tráfico e consumo de droga no Caniçal alastram a olhos vistos. É dinheiro fácil que entra e morte certa de tantos outros.

Rosário Martins

?New bread???

Follow the link please
http://www.dnoticias.pt/default.aspx?file_id=dn04010202300409

three months and ticking...
today...a new lease on life.
I love my left hand side

How dare you CUT ????

How can anyone censor this???
Show it to the world!!!
Fuckers

For every being blessed with self awareness, comes the irrevocable question:
WHO AM I???

I don't get it.

Lately, it seems to me that my old girlfriends dislike talking to me. Even the ones that never were but there was this attraction.

The curious thing is that that realization comes after Saturday when i last posted on my blog. Now i no, that seldom they drop by to see anything i might have written, and what are the odds of them all coming over on Saturday???

Or is it that decided that they really they are better off without me?

Still, that would have be after Saturday. Or is the irony of the question posted, not lost on this conclusion?

Well anyway it is their prerogative.

Speak or not at least hope they don't talk ill of me.

CARMO

I was walking around today and it was that kind of a day.You know, a spring sunny and showery breezy day!!!All of the sudden i saw this girl and she reminded me of an old girlfriend.Probably the only one that i really thought about a future with. Anyway, the image and the remembrance persisted whilst i walked and i was wondering about the chances of meeting her there and then, in Crouch End of all places in the world. Ours was an acrimonious goodbye so i was thinking if it was her, would she say anything.

You know how it goes...in a day like this you already feel melancholic and then you obviously situations arise that make you ponder about where your life would be if you had taken a different route. 

My point is this, though.There i was with all these thoughts about her and all in my head and, as if to help the party, i see a double-decker bus passing by publicizing a new movie...WAIT FOR IT...

"Ghost of girlfriend past"

These are the things you can't make up.So i wonder.We have all these names to identify and define phenomena , like "deja vu" and what not.

SO WHAT DO YOU CALL THIS?

WHO

Now it's the suine flu

MENDEL VERSUS COMANDER DATA

I am so tired that i can't even write.
It's terrible.
Still i have to say one name.
Panayiotis Zavos...
HERO OR CRAZY-MONSTER?

A bit of both i would think but he is just taking the wrong way, i believe.

It's all about nano-technology.

How can you not love life???

minstrels

talk,talk,talk...
Got to remember that is only 5 more months!!!

21st century technology

No internet for a few days...
My modem past it's sell-by-date...
Couldn't make it up.

bang bang

Barack Obama publicly admitted ,or rather affirmed that over 90% of the weapons found in Mexico are U.S. built.
Is this not war???????
Over 90%.
How can this be????
It beggars belief.

SHUT UP

I was not wrong...

ME, MYSELF AND I

So heading over to work...The day is beautiful outside, flowers allover the place, sunny to dry up the soaky land from the rain of the last few days. Woke up to some mellow music and all seems bright. Over the sudden i remember...I'm gonna work with mister "don't care attitude" and mister lethargic.
Core...it's going to be a crappy day.
I does tend to happen, when i am in a good mood.It just comes to show you how life is never on a straight line.
Can i be proved long latter on?
SO HOPE SO.

WHY???

As any other person that lives in this London i ride the bus...
The double-decker one, of of them new shining ones that the mayor bought.There are, of course some steps to access the upper level and this guy started climbing them as the bus drove off. He wasn't holding the rails, so we came crushing down and fell on top of his arm. That must of hurt as hell. Still, on the other hand we had a roll-up cigarette that was half done.He just didn't let go of it. Kinda difficult to feel sorry for him.
As all around me does so, i can't help but to be inquisitive as to the fact that people seem to deliberately make life difficult both for them as to the next one. Sure, life is a challenge and that is the fun of it. When we all return to our previous state of chaotic quarks and electrons and the residual energy then elevates itself to the state of empiric knowledge we will then know better.
But it seems to me redundant the fact that you will acquire knowledge thru stupidity of actions.I mean, at the end you are not learning, you are simply a living protozoan, you are extant, you SUBSIST...but you do nothing...

AND THAT IS THE TRUE SADNESS OF AN INDOLENT MIND

IF I RULED THE WORLD...

I am not magnanimous...
I just put the seat up on a public toilet, i roll an extra time the towel so that the person coming after me doesn't have to touch on a damp cloth.I stand on the left so that others can pass me if they are in a hurry.I do these things on an eternal hope that someone else will do the same.
I gave the wrong directions on the subway today to an old woman.Actually they weren't wrong.I just told her to go to the first carriage rather than the last, by mistake.
I then proceeded my voyage until her stop in order to help her out.She's been in London for a few years but says people just don't care any more.
I guess i proved her wrong.
I do not expect a pay back or gratitude. My conscience just doesn't allow me to be any other way.
I can't change the world, i know.
BUT I CAN SURELY TRY TO DO SO!!!

Liberty

I just wouldn't like to be in his place.Still, i think he lost it. Silly old copper!!!

Softly breezing

My silent killer!!!

who am i?

I was watching "the Haunting in Connecticut"!!I do not watch horror movies as they are boring and noisy.Their cinematic aesthetics is non-appealing to me and i always found to see any purpose or message on the genre.
I have been light headed and dizzy.
Also overall thinkative about all things relating to religion, mind and the procrastination of relationships of amorous nature and it's consequences such as marriage and fatherhood.
Overall i would say i feel concern as to where to go.
I wonder, then, what role has the "abrupt" cessation of my medication to do with it?
I have started to smoke again.
I do not feel happy.

Nothingness

Today...
I used oxygen...
That was it.
Awesome day!!!

Ahoy me maties, karrrrrrrgh.....

I am not too sure which one is the most ridiculous...
The US navy dispatching almost a fleet and FBI units to Somalia because of pirates or the fact that was front page news all over the place.
I mean they short of sending aircraft carriers.I guess they don't want another "black hawk" down. The point is that it doesn't seem to phase them none.And no wonder.Pirates have got to be loving it, the cat and dog game against one of the most powerful navy's in the world.And they still winning.What are the Americans going to do?Sink the ships they own?Fat chance of that.The insurers wouldn't allow it.
It's time to turn back the clock and see what was done so successful 200 years ago to root out piracy.
CAN YOU LEARN WITH HISTORY????

THE END OF MIR. Y

I'm reading this book.
It's doing my head in.
I know it's fictional but it makes so much sense that i can't help thinking of it.
IT'S CURSED.

Citalopram

No mood stabilizers any more.
I've just finished because my nurse decided not to pick up the phone for the last 3 weeks.Not to phased, thou.
Should be interesting to see what's going to happen.
KEep you posted.
One thing's for sure.This lethargie is bound to stop...

Counter terrorism???

It's all about Pakistan...
Crazy fuckers.The hand of extremism is everywhere!!!And it's just about people.Not religion.

Hollistic treatment!!!

they stealing from the church to give to the hospitals...
Chaplain's???
uncool.
Being at an hospital is a quite disturbing situation and having a spiritual company there is a very strong point on the road to recovery.And same times to come into acceptance.
You take that away and i REALLY does become a place people hate.
Render unto Caesar the things which are Caesar’s, and unto God the things that are God’s!!!

wave function

The description of nature is essentially probabilistic. The probability of an event is related to the square of the amplitude of the wave function related to it.
In other words,forget empirical evidence as not all variants are known, and whatever is happening is just a consequence of actions taken before and just a action occurring in a precise moment.It does not mean it is the final outcome.
So, that leaves us clueless about all that is happening and is the soul basis of hope.
And i have tone loads of it!!!

lethargic

Nostalgic and all-round worthless...
Imagine in what state of mind am i!!!

these people make me sick

Welcome to North London

Day off and ransacked the closet looking for t-shirts.

perceptions

Have you ever notice that there are people out there that really seem small???
It's not that they are, in fact, small.They probably are as tall as the one next to them. The perception changes interelly if it is an heterosexual couple, thou, as if the woman is slightly taller, the man is imediatly seen as vertically challenged.
There are more examples.
I? will tell you...
BUT FIRST I'M GOING TO EAT, AS MY STOMACH IS ONE OF A GIANT

NOSEY

what to say about people that tend to think deodorant is perfume??
What's even worse, they want to share with the world that deodorant is the new Hugo Boss, even the cheapest one bought in pound stretcher...Still i suppose is better than bodily odour, right?
RIGHT???
RIGHT???

I predict a riot...

To all those braves souls and the courageous ones that could be out there, in the front line, showing that something can be done, i thank you.
I believe in this cause and in some many others that were being fought across London today.