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three months and ticking...
today...a new lease on life.
I love my left hand side

How dare you CUT ????

How can anyone censor this???
Show it to the world!!!
Fuckers

For every being blessed with self awareness, comes the irrevocable question:
WHO AM I???

I don't get it.

Lately, it seems to me that my old girlfriends dislike talking to me. Even the ones that never were but there was this attraction.

The curious thing is that that realization comes after Saturday when i last posted on my blog. Now i no, that seldom they drop by to see anything i might have written, and what are the odds of them all coming over on Saturday???

Or is it that decided that they really they are better off without me?

Still, that would have be after Saturday. Or is the irony of the question posted, not lost on this conclusion?

Well anyway it is their prerogative.

Speak or not at least hope they don't talk ill of me.

CARMO

I was walking around today and it was that kind of a day.You know, a spring sunny and showery breezy day!!!All of the sudden i saw this girl and she reminded me of an old girlfriend.Probably the only one that i really thought about a future with. Anyway, the image and the remembrance persisted whilst i walked and i was wondering about the chances of meeting her there and then, in Crouch End of all places in the world. Ours was an acrimonious goodbye so i was thinking if it was her, would she say anything.

You know how it goes...in a day like this you already feel melancholic and then you obviously situations arise that make you ponder about where your life would be if you had taken a different route. 

My point is this, though.There i was with all these thoughts about her and all in my head and, as if to help the party, i see a double-decker bus passing by publicizing a new movie...WAIT FOR IT...

"Ghost of girlfriend past"

These are the things you can't make up.So i wonder.We have all these names to identify and define phenomena , like "deja vu" and what not.

SO WHAT DO YOU CALL THIS?

WHO

Now it's the suine flu

MENDEL VERSUS COMANDER DATA

I am so tired that i can't even write.
It's terrible.
Still i have to say one name.
Panayiotis Zavos...
HERO OR CRAZY-MONSTER?

A bit of both i would think but he is just taking the wrong way, i believe.

It's all about nano-technology.

How can you not love life???

minstrels

talk,talk,talk...
Got to remember that is only 5 more months!!!

21st century technology

No internet for a few days...
My modem past it's sell-by-date...
Couldn't make it up.

bang bang

Barack Obama publicly admitted ,or rather affirmed that over 90% of the weapons found in Mexico are U.S. built.
Is this not war???????
Over 90%.
How can this be????
It beggars belief.

SHUT UP

I was not wrong...

ME, MYSELF AND I

So heading over to work...The day is beautiful outside, flowers allover the place, sunny to dry up the soaky land from the rain of the last few days. Woke up to some mellow music and all seems bright. Over the sudden i remember...I'm gonna work with mister "don't care attitude" and mister lethargic.
Core...it's going to be a crappy day.
I does tend to happen, when i am in a good mood.It just comes to show you how life is never on a straight line.
Can i be proved long latter on?
SO HOPE SO.

WHY???

As any other person that lives in this London i ride the bus...
The double-decker one, of of them new shining ones that the mayor bought.There are, of course some steps to access the upper level and this guy started climbing them as the bus drove off. He wasn't holding the rails, so we came crushing down and fell on top of his arm. That must of hurt as hell. Still, on the other hand we had a roll-up cigarette that was half done.He just didn't let go of it. Kinda difficult to feel sorry for him.
As all around me does so, i can't help but to be inquisitive as to the fact that people seem to deliberately make life difficult both for them as to the next one. Sure, life is a challenge and that is the fun of it. When we all return to our previous state of chaotic quarks and electrons and the residual energy then elevates itself to the state of empiric knowledge we will then know better.
But it seems to me redundant the fact that you will acquire knowledge thru stupidity of actions.I mean, at the end you are not learning, you are simply a living protozoan, you are extant, you SUBSIST...but you do nothing...

AND THAT IS THE TRUE SADNESS OF AN INDOLENT MIND

IF I RULED THE WORLD...

I am not magnanimous...
I just put the seat up on a public toilet, i roll an extra time the towel so that the person coming after me doesn't have to touch on a damp cloth.I stand on the left so that others can pass me if they are in a hurry.I do these things on an eternal hope that someone else will do the same.
I gave the wrong directions on the subway today to an old woman.Actually they weren't wrong.I just told her to go to the first carriage rather than the last, by mistake.
I then proceeded my voyage until her stop in order to help her out.She's been in London for a few years but says people just don't care any more.
I guess i proved her wrong.
I do not expect a pay back or gratitude. My conscience just doesn't allow me to be any other way.
I can't change the world, i know.
BUT I CAN SURELY TRY TO DO SO!!!

Liberty

I just wouldn't like to be in his place.Still, i think he lost it. Silly old copper!!!

Softly breezing

My silent killer!!!

who am i?

I was watching "the Haunting in Connecticut"!!I do not watch horror movies as they are boring and noisy.Their cinematic aesthetics is non-appealing to me and i always found to see any purpose or message on the genre.
I have been light headed and dizzy.
Also overall thinkative about all things relating to religion, mind and the procrastination of relationships of amorous nature and it's consequences such as marriage and fatherhood.
Overall i would say i feel concern as to where to go.
I wonder, then, what role has the "abrupt" cessation of my medication to do with it?
I have started to smoke again.
I do not feel happy.

Nothingness

Today...
I used oxygen...
That was it.
Awesome day!!!

Ahoy me maties, karrrrrrrgh.....

I am not too sure which one is the most ridiculous...
The US navy dispatching almost a fleet and FBI units to Somalia because of pirates or the fact that was front page news all over the place.
I mean they short of sending aircraft carriers.I guess they don't want another "black hawk" down. The point is that it doesn't seem to phase them none.And no wonder.Pirates have got to be loving it, the cat and dog game against one of the most powerful navy's in the world.And they still winning.What are the Americans going to do?Sink the ships they own?Fat chance of that.The insurers wouldn't allow it.
It's time to turn back the clock and see what was done so successful 200 years ago to root out piracy.
CAN YOU LEARN WITH HISTORY????

THE END OF MIR. Y

I'm reading this book.
It's doing my head in.
I know it's fictional but it makes so much sense that i can't help thinking of it.
IT'S CURSED.

Citalopram

No mood stabilizers any more.
I've just finished because my nurse decided not to pick up the phone for the last 3 weeks.Not to phased, thou.
Should be interesting to see what's going to happen.
KEep you posted.
One thing's for sure.This lethargie is bound to stop...

Counter terrorism???

It's all about Pakistan...
Crazy fuckers.The hand of extremism is everywhere!!!And it's just about people.Not religion.

Hollistic treatment!!!

they stealing from the church to give to the hospitals...
Chaplain's???
uncool.
Being at an hospital is a quite disturbing situation and having a spiritual company there is a very strong point on the road to recovery.And same times to come into acceptance.
You take that away and i REALLY does become a place people hate.
Render unto Caesar the things which are Caesar’s, and unto God the things that are God’s!!!

wave function

The description of nature is essentially probabilistic. The probability of an event is related to the square of the amplitude of the wave function related to it.
In other words,forget empirical evidence as not all variants are known, and whatever is happening is just a consequence of actions taken before and just a action occurring in a precise moment.It does not mean it is the final outcome.
So, that leaves us clueless about all that is happening and is the soul basis of hope.
And i have tone loads of it!!!

lethargic

Nostalgic and all-round worthless...
Imagine in what state of mind am i!!!

these people make me sick

Welcome to North London

Day off and ransacked the closet looking for t-shirts.

perceptions

Have you ever notice that there are people out there that really seem small???
It's not that they are, in fact, small.They probably are as tall as the one next to them. The perception changes interelly if it is an heterosexual couple, thou, as if the woman is slightly taller, the man is imediatly seen as vertically challenged.
There are more examples.
I? will tell you...
BUT FIRST I'M GOING TO EAT, AS MY STOMACH IS ONE OF A GIANT

NOSEY

what to say about people that tend to think deodorant is perfume??
What's even worse, they want to share with the world that deodorant is the new Hugo Boss, even the cheapest one bought in pound stretcher...Still i suppose is better than bodily odour, right?
RIGHT???
RIGHT???

I predict a riot...

To all those braves souls and the courageous ones that could be out there, in the front line, showing that something can be done, i thank you.
I believe in this cause and in some many others that were being fought across London today.