ALARM COCKS

Waking up in this town is not easy.
It's all too good to be true.

What becomes of the broken hearted?

Christmas with the family

Presents all opened all food all eaten...
Now lay back and watch some teli...

Lockets

I know, i know, it has nothing to do with it...But just the way they scream yupiii you would think it was a celebration.And less than 24 hours for me to be home for Christmas presents and all...i just feel like screaming yupppiiiiiiiiiiii
Listen to it...
It's fantastic...

Sit on it...

Phallic seats and constant pain.It ain't all that when you go for the office bikes.
Shall we try, then, the secluded ones that we know to be assertive ?
I should be a change...or isn't it really one?
JANUARY WILL COME AND CURIOSITY WILL BE SATISFIED.
ONE WAY OR ANOTHER...

TREES AND POSTERS

Still not very christmassy feeling, really.

But i am  3 days away from home.

anger management

I hate the unpleasantness of people.I don't dislike it and i don't ignore it.
I H-A-T-E IT...
and it is getting to me.It's got be this treatment.It's bordering unmanageable.
Courage...there is only 8 more weeks to go.Two of them are Christmas.
I guess i can hate them a bit longer

the tinker

Ok...i shouldn't really but can't fight the urge to comment about this person.He is a person like many others that i meet and one of the biggest causes of my self reclusion from the world. The sad thing is that, one day, this person is going to be in charge of something.

So much for common sense.

So he is a free newspaper distributor that is studying business admin. and doing a bachelor's degree.

He is obviously very smart and intensely cultural and ,of course, he has a favorite part of the newspaper that mirrors that thirst for knowledge.The horoscope.After that he spends the rest of the time doing Sudoku because...and wait for it...

IT'S A  BRAIN GAME!!!

Fuck me, you can't buy this shit...

DAMN

Arghhhhhhh...i'm so grumpy i can't even stand myself...gimme some holidays....fast

Embarrassment

Embarrassed about a silly comment made today...
A derogative, bigot, racist, and above all steriotipical comment that i much regret having done so.
It is well beneath me to do such remarks.
I need penitence. These are, it seems, no longer mistakes but patterns of conduct.
I have to be introspective and see where is this coming from.
NOT EVEN WORTH PUTTING COLOUR ONTO THESE COMMENTS.

London does it big

The last time i woke up this early, i was in the army.
Regardless of the pain that it was, it was,after all, worth it.
Today's no different.I walked London and i walked it good.But i enjoyed every minute of it.Cold as a freezer, tourists all over the place, grey sky's, money flying away, MacDonald's as a meal (twice) and i still love this city.
What's not to love ,really?

Christmas Shopping

7 A.M.
Heading for Oxford Circus...
Wish me luck.

Candy shop...ORGANIC

I am so spaced out.
My head buzzes and spins and i don't seem to be able to concentrate.I'm hungry but full stomach, awake but dreaming and i am not even in love.Come to think of it...when was it the last time that i so was?

WASH AND GO

Gonna go and have a bath...maybe like that i can heat up...this has been a cold year so far...

STICKS OR STONES????

I'm not over it.
I do not seem to be able to do it.Everything in me is a self sabotage voyage.I am narcissistic, pessimistic and no matter how hard i try i tend to want back all that i never wanted to begin with.
In that aspect my roar is not even a whisper.I am not a lion.
I AM A STICK MAN...
Feeble has they come it seems.

SEE YOU ON SUNDAY

I believe in right to die...
But that disgrace that happened last night with pretence of informing us about the choice of a former university professor that decided to die rather than live his life as a vegetable, does nothing to change people's mind about such controversy.
The wife decided to put it out there in order to gather sympathizer to the "right to die" cause. Nonsense.How is it that transmitting the death of her husband on TV help her and others cause? At the very least is trivializing the issue.
Obviously only cucko right wingers decrepit false pretend humane people will say it was absolutely right to do so.
I'll tell you what...i am so upset that i will talk about this again on Sunday...
RESEARCH IS NECESSARY.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT

I have no quarrels with this guy.
I am not upset with him, i am not trying to frame him nor am i trying to get dividends out of my actions mainly because that's just not me...
SO WHY THE HELL DID I TELL ON HIM???
I went through this voyage and i have changed but my principles should not become general ones. If i wanted to spread the word i would be a preacher, so it stands to reason that i could give a monkeys ass for what other people do as long as it doesn't interfere with me.
And it didn't.
SO WHY THE HELL DID I TELL ON HIM???
This just makes no sense and i am scared of myself.
I do not tell on people, i just don't do that...
SO WHY THE HELL DID I TELL ON HIM???

COME AND GET IT

But only for my nieces and nephew...
NOT FOR YOU ANYMORE....

I'M DREAMING OF A ............. XMAS

My first wiff off pine tree last night.

Now, it's beggining to look a lot like Christmas!!!

Prawn pasta and idolatry of the week's last day

Like always, there is pasta with tiger prawns, sun-dried tomato ,a call home, a shot on the stomach, a sense of relieve and the hope that something change.
Yep...you guessed it...Lady Sunday has arrived and devoted to her as i am i will continue with my licking her boots so that she remains longer...
AND THE NEW WEEK WON'T START!

SNOW WHITE????

It is all about the voyage, the discovery, the knowing what is not known to realize that it's only suck because one, then, knows as one has experienced both states.

Having said that, the way you conduct yourself will always have repercussions in what/who ever is left behind, so selfish attitudes have no room else that you provide some sort of cushion to dampen the consequences of you actions.

I may be mistaken but regardless of the fact that this person, that i don't even know and by chance works in the same company as i do, has died or not of a drugs overdose, the fact remains that her life choices were directly responsible for her dire outcome.

Having people collect money for the transport back to her own country doesn't strike me as fair mainly because the pressure is on you, that have been there and done that.

I do feel for her family but i cannot ever respect a person like that.I do not condemn her, but i have no respect for her neither.

So...should i contribute to the expenses as a sign of respect towards her memory, one of a person that could have been but is no longer, as she deemed fit to do so? Or should my actions reflect the profound disgust that i have for a person that imposed herself on others?

I haven't met her...for all i know , she could be a darling person.

Still, it doesn't hide the ultimate fact.

But i guess her folks don't need the aggro on top of the pain.

So contribute i will.

I, never the less, want to remind myself  that i'll do so under protest.

NEFERTITI

Colour, beauty, contrast, weird looking shoes, lust, urine , tamed, slave...
I blame that wretched, infernal woman.
GET OUT OF MY HEAD...please???

SAD MORNING

Sad news when waking up...
Desertinha has died.
It was a 20 year's old seal from Madeira island...
A protected species and a story of success.After hunting them almost to extinction madeirians now protect them and with 50 wild animals is one of the few colonies in the world that has grown.Sadly one of it's more emblematic members has passed away.
I wanted to express my sorrow and unfortunately, in this country, it's not going to be talked. I put my thoughts out there then, in the hope that it soothes the pain.

HOUSE OF THE FLYING DAGGERS

It is ever so easy to misconstrued words.
Take this girl standing accused of murder, for instance.
She once said she "would murder for a pizza".
Well who of us has never been there...particularly after a few dubies?Now it seems that is coming back to haunt her.Sure she might be guilty and she definitely looks the part but...that expression is so often used that there's nothing to it...and even if there is, nobody should read anything on it.Sadly they do and it seems that the most explosive people are the ones often mentioned. It doesn't matter the context in witch it was used, is the connotation somebody that dislikes you gives it.
On my part...they just words.
On somebody else's a way to frame you.

Testing... one,two,three... testing

These free days are great...they leave you nothing to talk about but still you comment about them regardless.
Only thing of notice...i have finished my project and am quite happy about it...final touch here and there but it's just polish.
And it's quite good if i might say so myself.
What i didn't know was that i was actually good in maths.
I've got to reassess my priorities.
New year, please come fast.

CAPTAINS LOG STARDATE 20081201

on the matter of the eternal fight of good against evil...
WHO WOULD WIN THIS BATTLE, THEN?